"I don't know how to be happy"
by Donna
(Warren,RI)
SPD is so real. My 8 year old son has no idea why he is so unhappy. "Mom, why don't I like food, why does the water hurt my skin, why can't I catch a ball, why do I get so mad, why, why, why...................!!!!
I just want to cry some days (ok, most days). Everything is a chore for my son, (and a breeze for his twin sister). He has been going to a psychologist for 3 years and only now we have moved from an "adjustment disorder" to my own dx of SPD. After reading "Out of Sync" and the "Sensory sensitive Child" I have come to the decision this is what my child has. he has gone from being a happy child with the above issues to a very unhappy little boy. I think that as he is getting older he is noticing how different he is from other kids. It breaks my heart! I am waiting for the OT at school to give his teacher a Sensory profile to fill out. I just see him getting more frustrated and I'm afraid we have been wasting precious time.
Will he ever feel good about himself? It is so tiring to coddle him so he doesn't get upset. i know he cannot control this disorder but because he looks like any other little boy, people look at him like ...what a spoiled brat, control him, I wouldn't let my son get away with that'
It is so exhausting !!
Thanks for letting me just get it off my chest.